Life can be overly funny. When there is smooth sailing, life has a habit of bringing about stormy weather just to remind you to be on your toes at all times. It wouldn’t be so bad if we knew that bad weather was on the horizon, but it comes when we least expect it and are not ready for it. I know all the stormy weather I have dealt with has arrived when I was carrying on with my business without a care in the world.
I still remember the day like it was yesterday. I went to bed like any other day, lay my head on the pillow and allowed myself to drift off into dreamland. What seemed like a bad dream became reality quite quickly. I awoke in the early hours of the morning with my world spinning and in desperation to throw up. I got up out of bed and grabbed everything I could that would help me get to the bathroom. As soon as my eyes set their sights on the toilet, it was love at first sight and without delay, my body erupted. No rainbow came out of me. I, instead, had to pay the toll to the water bowl gods and lost all the dinner I had eaten a couple of hours earlier.
Wherever Niagara Falls might have been, my bathroom was now the new location where you could catch the majestic waterfall in action. I still cannot describe the quantity that came out of me. Where did it all come from? I’m pretty sure I didn’t eat a dinner for four. Even when nothing was left that could come out of me, my body was quite intent on extracting its internal organs; thankfully, I avoided that terrible situation with some rational thinking during such an irrational time. However, my body was not ready to give up yet, so it reached into the deepest depths of my stomach and produced some bile to ensure I really tasted the fruits of my current labour.
While leaning on the toilet bowl, I was expecting my world to stop spinning, but I was fresh out of luck. I must have thrown up all my luck a couple of minutes into this wonderful new experience of mine. What made it all worse was my brother laughing at me during my hugging session with the toilet bowl. What can I say? Our intimate relationship won’t win the approval of everyone.
When I knew I was officially done, I decided to head back to bed and try and sleep. I thought the worst was over, but little did I know I would spend the next few years battling with severe vertigo and hearing loss to go along with it.
During the battle raging on, I slipped into a crippling depression in which my mind was preoccupied with thoughts of ending my life. As the days rolled by, it became progressively worse, and I soon found myself contemplating suicide daily, and I soon found myself attempting to end my life. Those around me were alarmed and started to intervene, which set my life on a different course. I received the help I needed to manage my disease and struggles, and I sit here writing this now, alive with meaning and purpose in my life. So, thank you to everyone who has cared to make a difference in my life for the better. It is through you that I sit here now alive with fire in my heart and dreams in my head, and I will see everyone when I cross the line of achievement of my dreams.
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